Friday, October 31, 2008

People notice..

I was eating lunch yesterday with some colleagues from work. Lunch consisted of the tiny can of spaghetti, 1 slice of bergen soy and linseed bread and a slice of cheese on the bread. I got through half the slice of bread and cheese and most of the spaghetti and then I was full full full. We were talking about eating, and one colleague said to me: "I've watched you a few times when you eat and you really take your time with your meal." To which I smiled and said "I'm just taking my time so I don't have to go back to my desk!". Interesting that people are so observant about my eating style!

Yesterday evening was one of those "I can't get full" evenings. I made a country chicken dish, with extra veges and rice. While I could feel the restriction when I ate, I was hungry half an hour later. So I had another helping. Now, bare in mind that my "helping" was one tablespoon of rice and some sauce with chicken and vege. I wasn't even drinking with my meal! Yet this morning, I've had my Celebrity Slim shake and I'm full... Strange..

And I couldn't satisfy my sweet tooth last night! I had 4 (yes count them... 4) freddo frogs AND a scoop of lemon lime sorbet... I could have done alot more damage if I hadn't of been banded.. but still... it was particularly frustrating. I think it's because I've been having a scoop of icecream after each meal during the week. And so I may have gotten used to having something sweet after dinner.. will have to put a stop to that.

This weekend I've got an engagement party to go to, as well as a farewell lunch/drinks. The engagement party will probably be nibbles, so no probs there, but lunch may be a bit trickier to negotiate.

Have a great weekend peoples!

LBG xx

Tuesday, October 28, 2008

Feelin' Hot Hot Hot!!

Man was it hot in Sydney town yesterday... Summer is definitely upon us, and another reason why the exercise levels have to go up and the food intake has to go down!! Beach weather!!!

I was feeling skinny yesterday... went to the gym in the morning and had a tight-ish fitting black dress on for work, with one of those thin belts that do up at the waist. People were commenting... it was nice! Then I had a massive headache that hit me at about 3pm... it was a doozy. Luckily dear husband drove me home because I could barely open my eyes... I took some panadol when I got home and spent the rest of the evening on the couch in a dark room. Dinner was already made from Saturday (Lamb stew)... it was delish but I couldn't finish all of it, which was EXCELLENT!

Went to Spin this morning, but wasn't feeling the fitness funk and really had to push myself through it. I've got the feeling like a headache *could* be coming on... so I'm dosing up on some more drugs and have some water handy. I really wasn't feeling it this morning (I usually get right into my Tuesday morning spin), but the music wasn't that normal high energy stuff, it was more rock and roll and I can't really exercise to that... maybe that was it.

I have a training session today and tomorrow. They provide lunch. Sandwiches... GREAT! Totally off the menu for me, so I've brought in a can of baked beans and a slice of soy and linseed bread. I've also got a can of mandarins in spring water some strawberries and a lemon lime celebrity slim. If they provide a fruit platter at the training, I'll have some more fruit as well...

OK, that's it from me. I have been reading everyone's blogs and everyone is doing so well. It's so amazing to read that everyone has their own private battles with weight loss... and I'm inspired by the way we are all coping with them. I love being on your journey with you... ups and downs. Thanks for reading !!!

LBG xx

Sunday, October 26, 2008

Feelin' Better..

Feeling slightly better, although I have one sore tonsil at the moment.. which is totally weird. I have gone to the gym 4 times this week, 2 while I was feeling not-so-great and I still managed to burn 600 cals and work out for an hour. Funnily enough, I actually felt better after going to the gym!!

I've decided to put my scales away. Now that I've been re-filled I've become scales obessed again... I've lost 0.5kg this week, but I've been on the scales every day and I've got to stop it!! My next appointment with my fill doctor is on 27th January 2009. I even wished the receptionist a merry christmas on my way out of the surgery last week... CRAZY! I digress. I've got 3 months until my next appointment, and I want to have lost 10kg by then. So my goal is to be at 78kg by the 27th January.

OK, this freaks me out a bit...
1. Because I don't remember the last time I was 78kg
2. it's in the 70's... I'm still getting used to being in the 80's!
3. I don't even know what I'm going to be like at 78kg...

My eating seems to be well under control now. Small portions, 1 cup of food and I'm full. Excellent. My exercise is also pretty good - 4-5 times a week at the gym, for 45mins to 1 hr. So if I just keep doing that I should get there right?


LBG xx

Thursday, October 23, 2008

So far so good..

Well feeling like shite today, so took the day off work. Have razor blades in my throat and a constant headache. Hope it's only the 24 hour thing... we'll see tomorrow.

Yesterday I stuck to liquids and all was fine. Had a small can of baked beans for breakfast and was FULL until lunch. Forgot what that beautiful restriction was like. Had a handful of nuts and a couple of cups of tea for lunch, a piece of cheese for the afternoon and only now I'm starting to think about food... Tonight is mashed potato, a small piece of baked fish and a tablespoon of steamed vege.

No exercise yesterday or today due to feeling rotten, but hoping to go tomorrow morning.

My band and I are getting reaquainted... I still love you!

LBG xx

Wednesday, October 22, 2008

Fill! Glorious Fill!!!

8 weeks with no fill and I gain 4.4kg! How terrible is that?!?! Went to see wonderful fill doctor, and while he was a bit disappointed that I'd gained weight, I showed him a couple of before and after photos and he was pleased. The fill went back in, and I can feel it. Oh it feels so good! I'd forgotten what it felt like.

He also did measurements.

Neck 33cm (down 1.5cm)
Waist 92cm (down 26cm)
Hips 111cm (down 15cm)

Very Cool!

I'm on liquids today, and then soft foods tomorrow. Can't wait for the weight loss to start again.

Have a good day!

LBG xx

Thursday, October 16, 2008

Thursday thoughts..

Yesterday I caught the train to work... and when I was on the train station there was a seat free. The seats are in a group of 4, all separated by an arm rest. I put my bags on the seat next to me, and then realised that if I scooted over to one side of my seat, there was more than enough room to fit my bag next to me, thus freeing up a seat. That was definitely my smile for the day.

Hope you're smiling today also!

LBG xx

Tuesday, October 14, 2008

Tuesday Ramblings

So today I did my 6:15am spin class with Tony the gym instructor with not an ounce of fat on him. He teaches so many classes a week, it's rediculous... he has no life.. or rather, the gym is his life.. and he has the body to show for it. I wonder what gym instructors eat. Can they go crazy and eat anything because they exercise so much? Or do they still count the calories and watch the carbs, protein and fat... I wonder..

But I digress. So I'm doing my spin class this morning, and I feel aweful.. like I can't breath. Around me all the windows are fogging up and I realise that there is no airconditioning working!! No wonder I'm having wipe my face every 30 seconds! I walked out of that class sopping wet from sweat.. but I didn't feel like I'd done a good work out because I couldn't breath properly. I felt like I was breathing in other peoples carbon dioxide...I felt quite ill actually. Still, Mr HR Polar Monitor said that I had burnt 550 cals so I must of done something right.

I had an amazing salad for lunch - baby spinach, tomato, capsicum, olives, fetta, 1 egg and balsamic vinegar.... delish, but filled a pretty big bowl which I got down easily. I felt so healthy eating it! I'm going to make the same salad tomorrow but this time, have it with some tuna. Tonight is baked atlantic salmon with a coriander pesto dressing and some steamed zucchini and broccoli. How delish does that sound?!?!

Having some family dramas at the moment which I won't go into, except that they are making me sad. But not emotional eating because of it, which is a good thing... I seem to vent to my girlfriends which seem to help!

Plan to go to the gym tomorrow morning, early... and tomorrow night I'm going out to Tenpenyaki with a girlfriend which should be fun!

Hope all is well in your world!

LBG xx

P.S. I've just put up my fat vs thin photos on my blog... I really can see a difference!! :) Here's some more below:

So this is a side on view taken in March 07... look at that muffin and those chunky ham arms!!! and I thought I looked good in this top!! *eek* how wrong was I!!! and this is me on the right 20 something kilos difference. taken in Oct 2008. Cool Eh??

Monday, October 13, 2008

Time to get serious!

So I have an appointment with Fill doctor next week (thank the lord!) and I'm now at 87kg!!! I've gained 3.4kg in 6 weeks!!! *eek* OK, so I was massively dehydrated to start with when I weighed in, so I never truely believed I was 83.6kg, but the numbers did flash on the scales.. so there is some truth in them... maybe I was in too much disbelief for it to sink in...

The sad reality is, is that I have gained 3.4kg since then! I haven't gone completely nuts with my food intake - I've had Macdonalds only once! But my portion sizes are now 1.5 - 2 cups of food and I'm hungry within an hour. My only saving grace is the fact that I have kept up my exercise and have been to the gym 4-5 times / week.

I had a pretty indulgent weekend though... out for dinner on Saturday night - 3 course meal. I chose the healthiest options - A lovely black sesame seared tuna, then a gorgeous piece of salmon with a lovely salad, and then a small slice of Bomb Alaska for dessert, but I did also have 3 lemon, lime bitters (I was designated driver), which were around 150cal a drink... Saturday (after a spin class) I relaxed for the rest of the day and had a load of chocolate and then Sunday, after starting the day off with half a gorgeous omlette, I picked and picked and picked cos I was bored! I should have gone for a walk or something, but I had burnt my hand (while making the Omlette!!) so I was in quite a bit of pain and was clutching at an ice pack for most of the day.

Today I was back at the gym this morning, burnt 550 cals and felt really great. Got alot of after work things on Wed - Fri, so going to aim to go to the gym in the morning and at Lunch time. I'm going to go to the gym twice tomorrow (Spin class in the morning then ABT at lunch) because I'm going to QLD for the weekend, so won't be getting much gym action while I'm up there!

Forgive my randomness. I guess what I'm trying to say is that I miss my fill !!! I'm looking forward to be filled again so I can get some more control over my eating. Exercise isn't a problem.. I love it more and more... it's just my eating!!

Happy Monday People!

LBG xx

Friday, October 10, 2008

Comparison Shots

I was a bridesmaid in late 2006. At that time I was around 105kg - so not even at my heaviest weight... I had a bright blue bridemaid dress, and I thought I looked fabulous. I kept this dress and the weekend that I had that major throw away of some of my fat clothes, I found this dress... and decided to try it on. We'll... the difference is absolutely amazing. I could get it on without even undoing the zip... My husband was so impressed, we took some photos, and I've managed to dig out some of the wedding photos. I've posted a few before and afters so you can see just what 20kg difference looks like!

Fat Bridesmaid
Me in the dress last week!

Looking at those photos makes me feel Damn GOOD! Happy Friday everyone!!
LBG xx
P.S. Those "sucky-in" pants are the ones from Target and they're called Dr Rey's Shapers or something like that... they're FAB!

Thursday, October 9, 2008

Shopping Spree!

The weekend before last I thew out around $2000 worth of clothes that were just rediculously too big for me. I tried on stuff and my husband said I looked like I was a little girl wearing my Mum's clothes. So last weekend I told my husband that I needed to replace the clothes that I had thrown out. So off we toddled to the shopping mall where I picked out 3 lovely dresses from Jacquie E - 2 of which I can wear for work, and 1 dress which is more of a going out to the races or a wedding sort of dress. Then we were in target and I came out with 2 pairs of pants (size 14) and 2 tops for work. Score!

While it definitely didn't make up for the amount of clothes I threw away earlier... it's a start. And now I get to build my wardrobe gradually for summer! Have already worn one dress to work and people have commented!

Oh yeah, I have also bought some of those "sucky-in" pants, you know.. the ones that go up to your bra line that really hold everything in. I feel like I'm cheating in a way, because those pants really have changed my shape. I am a dress size smaller when I wear those pants. My loose skin on my stomach is getting more and more noticable and I feel more toned when I wear them... but I feel like I'm not my "true" self when I wear them, like I'm cheating!


Anyway. Have a great day. 1 more day until the weekend.. YAY!

LBG xx

Tuesday, October 7, 2008

Foods that fill you up!

Having fill taken out has really changed my way of thinking with food. Before, when I was super restricted, I could rely on the band more to make me stop when I'd only had a couple of mouthfuls. Now that I can eat more because I've got less restriction, I'm trying to choose foods that fill me up. I love the fact that I can eat more veges and fruit, including things like celery, apples, grapes and all that other good stuff. So I've filled my lunchbox with all things good. Today I'm having a can of tuna mixed in with some mayo, onion and tomato on vita wheat for lunch, breakky will be a celebrity slim with extra berries (for some antioxidate action), morning tea is 3 celery sticks with philly and afternoon tea is an apple and some low fat yoghurt. Tonight I'm having potato and leek soup, which I make from scratch so I can control the fat content, although I am lacking a bit on the protein side for dinner I might have to add some chicken as well.

I must also tell you that my exercise since having fill out over 1 month ago has been superb. I have been to the gym 5 days per week for the past 5 weeks, something I said I was going to do while my fill level was reduced. Today was no exception, and I did a hardcore spin class at 6:15am!! Go Me!

I can't wait to have my fill put back in.. Bring on 22nd October!!!... 15 days to go!!

Happy Tuesday peoples!

LBG xx

Wednesday, October 1, 2008

Just a quickie today..

Sooooo freaking busy with work these days, I barely have time to have a look at all my favourite blogs! I am popping in and having a quick read in the morning, but haven't had time to do alot of commenting. But I am still around.

Stress combined with TTOM = a massive binge day for me yesterday afternoon. I ate a whole packet of vanilla wafters... yes peoples, a whole packet! 600 cals later!! I was mortified when I figured out how many cals it was. Luckily I'd already burnt 450 cals at the gym earlier in the day, and I ended up eating just rice crackers for dinner cos I really wasn't all that hungry. It's 2:30pm and I'm looking round for something to nibble on. I've already had an apple this afternoon. I have a yoghurt in my bag, so I might eat that... or I might have a couple of vita wheat.. I HATE being hungry!!! I need my fill back.

Tonight I'm going to make a fritatta with asparagus and pumpkin. YUM. Gawd, I'm already thinking about what's for dinner... when I was filled properly I didn't care what was on the menu!!

Thats all for now.

LBG xx