Friday, September 14, 2012

It's time to get back on the wagon..

My second little boy turned 3 months old this week... where is the time going? He is absolutely gorgeous, such a smiley happy baby. I love him to absolute bits!

What I am becoming more acutely aware of is the fact that I am not losing weight anymore. I thought I'd just be able to breastfeed myself down to my goal weight. Ummm.. No. Breastfeeding hunger is serious... I MUST EAT ALL THE THINGS! Seriously, I am hungry ALL. THE. TIME. And thirsty.. so goddamn thirsty! Now that the breastfeeding is well established and I'm having absolutely NO problems at all (so freaking lucky!), it's time to address my weight loss.. it's time for a fill.

This morning I rang the clinic and booked in for a fill. 11:30am on October 18th 2012 is my appointment with my wonderful lapband surgeon and fill doctor. I'm a bit excited about getting a fill, part of me is dreading it too. I know I'm going to have to retrain myself to eat smaller portions again. But I need to do this. I'm not happy at this weight. I mean, I'm happy.. deleriously happy that I have such a beautiful family, my life is wonderful, but truthfully I'm not happy with how I feel with my body. Maybe its a post pregnancy thing (I did only give birth 3 months ago).. who knows, but either way, it's starting to get me down. None of my clothes fit me. I feel so unfit and tired. Exercise will play a big role in my weight loss as well, this I know. I'm looking forward to getting back to the gym, but this is something I can't do until I start working again. Because 1) we don't have the extra money for a gym membership and 2) I can exercise during my lunch break while the boys are in daycare.

So what will I do for the next month? I'm going to start reading up again on the lapband diet, prepare my pantry for my fill by getting rid of (aka.. eating) all the stuff I won't be able to eat when my lapband is filled. I am going to start making menu plans for dinners too.

I will also be "Starting Over" on the blog. I'm going to remove all my previous weight loss information and post my STARTING WEIGHT as of 18th October. I will become accountable again, and I will post my progress on my blog. I hope you'll follow my journey, this time with 2 kids in tow!!

Thanks for reading!!

LBG xx

7 comments:

Ricky Dee said...

Up your Exercise until your fill. Even though you are very active, you need 30 mins 3-4x wk minimum, focused on cardio and resistance! Regain is serious and you are making a great move!

Ricky Dee said...

Read over your post and notice the excuses about exercise and the lack of addressing the mindset that you must gain to maintain. Without these the fill will not help. You have a month to start journaling your feelings and stress and walking stairs, or what ever is available to exercise!

April said...

Good luck with the fill. I know that once I started losing weight again I started feeling better about everything.

It is hard to retrain your brain on portions though, I had 14 months band free whilst pregnant/breastfeeding, and it took me months to get my head around it all. Even now I still make mistakes and pile my plate with food I won't touch, or food that will make me sick.

adorkbl said...

I don't think you should erase all your stats... they are part of your journey! :) Congrats on getting back on track. I can imagine your hands are full!

20 to go! said...

Absolutely! Wouldn't miss it!

Bridget Parker said...

Yay for starting over! I'm here to support you on the next part of your journey! x

Bunny said...

Hey you!! Welcome back :-) so glad you have your 2 bundles and your band and you are back to blogging. My flab is finally shifting at last but not much (if anything ) to do with the band, more like diet and exercise... The hunger is pretty awful, but I am not having a fill as I am so over the puking and hell that gives me. If I can't stand it I might have a little tweak but so far so good :-) I am about 24 kgs from goal weight and have shifted 20 (15 of those since May!!) and trying to blog semi regularly.
I look forward to reading your journey and good luck with the fill xxx

Hugs bunny