Monday, June 25, 2007

Where did that kg go?

Scale check and I'm at 98.3kg as of Saturday. Go me! I swiftly lost that kg I gained the week before that. I've realised that I have a doctors check up next month and would like to be at 95kg for the occasion.. 3.3kg to go..

Not much else to report. I'm really happy with my restriction at the moment. I've found a good balance between what I can and can't eat and am full with fairly small amounts of food without being so restricted that I limit my variety of foods. That's the point right? I think I could probably go for another 0.2ml to make it an even 9mL... but will talk to the doc when I see him next month.

Ok, all from me for now.

LBG xx

Tuesday, June 19, 2007

Oops! I had a gain..

I have to give back my 10kg lost badge for now as I managed to gain 900g this week. Oops! Not to worry, I'm hoping to lose the 600g in no time to get me back to 10kg lost.. I totally deserved the gain this week. I ate crap, didn't count my calories and didn't exercise... I knew I would gain. So I'm back up to 99.2kg. Still, I'm under 100kg which is good, and I don't plan on going back there ever again..

Thanks to everyone who left a comment on my last post. I'm glad my little soap box rant about counting calories made sense. Cos, even though we've had weight loss surgery, it's not going to lose the weight for us. It will be our friend and make sure we don't over eat, but it won't tell us what we should and shouldn't put in our mouths... that's still our decision. I've also found that the healthier foods tend to make me feel fuller anyway. I PB'd on a pear yesterday.. it was gross.. but was FULL for like 3 hours afterwards. A large pear has the same calories as a 25g bag of chips. I can eat 4 of them in one sitting (believe me, I proved that last week.. ).. and still wasn't full. So not only did I eat 4 times as many calories as the pear, I was still hungry enough to eat more.

Ok, enough ranting from me. Enjoy your day!

LBG xx

Oh yeah, forgot to mention... I have photo's of my band.. yep, of my insides. I'm going to scan the photo in and post it up for you all to see. WooHoo!

Thursday, June 14, 2007

Your brain isn't banded!

I've noticed alot of comments about how people with a lap band can stop losing weight (or even gain weight) because they find "ways' of getting certain foods through the band. This happened to me... and it was extremely frustrating. To go through something as extreme as weight loss surgery and STILL not lose weight was very discouraging. But I realised something... I realised that my brain isn't banded, and that my band is only a tool to help me lose weight. I read this countless times as I was doing my research, but never really understood what it meant. I always thought deep down that the band would be the answer and that I would never have to worry about dieting again, cos the band would do all the work. WRONG. A couple of things I found were:
1. If I really wanted to eat all of something, I would... it would just take me a little longer
2. Junk food goes down easy... it's the easiest thing to eat. It was easy to eat before, and it is easy to eat now.
3. My band LOVES healthy foods... small amounts make me feel full.
4. My brain is not banded. I still get the same head hunger I did before the band..

So, even though I've had weight loss surgery... I am COUNTING CALORIES. Yep that's right... I am keeping track of everything I am eating... and you know what? it's working. Having the band makes it sooooooooo much easier to stop eating, but by counting calories I am still in control of everything I eat. Since I started counting calories, I have lost the majority of my weight (6kg since april)... that's more weight lost than the first 3 months having the band... So for all of you out there frustrated because you've had surgery and aren't losing wieght... don't rely on that fill to top you up and possibly limit your variety of foods you can eat... try old fashioned dieting... your band will love it!

LBG xx

Saturday, June 9, 2007

I love my band!

Not sure if I've mentioned this in the past few months, but even though my weight loss has been slower than I would have liked it, I am learning to live with my little plastic friend and I am FINALLY starting to see the results. I'm 10kg down, and I can fit so comfortably into a size 18. I feel like I am finally in control of my eating and my portions. I no longer get upset when I can't finish something. I get a sense of pride when I do eat smaller portions. I view my body as a machine that needs the best fuel possible to keep it going, therefore I only fuel my body with the healthiest foods and if I do eat junk food then I don't beat myself up over it. I weighed in at 98.3kg today. WooHoo!

I love my Band!

LBG xx

Friday, June 8, 2007

I've officially lost the first 10kg!

Stepped on the scales to reveal 98.4kg which means I'm now down a total of -10.4kg since the banding. I've hit the 10kg Mark!!! Ever since I have found the "sweet spot" the weight has just fallen off. I am feeling so great these day. I've been trying on clothes that I haven't been able to get into and I can fit into them now. I'm a comfortable size 18 now and am looking forward to being able to shop at "normal" stores like Suzanne's, Susan Grae, Jacquie E soon (when I have the money).

I had dinner with Mum and Dad last night and ate my smoked salmon and salad slowly, chewing lots, making sure that I didn't feel the need to PB. All went well and they didn't suspect a thing. My mum was talking to be about lap banding, cos she thinks it might be a good idea for my sister who is also overweight. I didn't say much at the time. She also said that My Dad wants her to "do it the hard way", like he thinks having a lap band is the easy way out. I just shut my mouth and didn't say anything. I don't know if I'll ever tell them that I have a lap band. I'm just not sure how they'd react. Number 1, they'd be disappointed in me for not telling them that I had gone into hospital and had surgery (which in itself is pretty crazy cos I tell my parents pretty much everything and we're really close) and Number 2, I think they'd think I had taken the easy way out and hadn't worked my butt off to lose the weight without help. I'm still in two minds about telling them. At the moment, I just want to prove to them that I can lose weight. Once I get to goal weight... I might re-consider, but for now, there is no way I could let them know. I feel bad for not revealing my big secret... but I'm afraid of their reaction. Does that makes sense??

Anyhoo, looking forward to a weekend at home with my Uni books to study for an exam next week. Hope you all have a great long weekend!

LBG xx

Monday, June 4, 2007

DOUBLE DIGITS!!! I did it!!!

Weighed in yesterday at 99.9kg.... GO ME!!!! I had to get on the scales a couple of times just to make sure that I wasn't seeing things... but 99.9 flashed up each time... WOOHOO!!!!!!!

This is a huge milestone for me, a really important one. To not be in triple figures anymore has given me a real boost and I feel like I'm finally on the weightloss train to skinnyness. Even though I have a long way to go... I have been kicking around at the low 100's for a while so to get past this hurdle has been fantastic. Especially cos I'm a bit down about my back pain and not being able to exercise at all.


Total loss now is -8.7kg since being banded... only 1.3kg to go until I get to the 10kg weight loss.

Have a great day!

LBG xx

Saturday, June 2, 2007

I've been MIA..

Not sure how many people read this blog, but for those who check up on me regularly you might have noticed that I've been AWOL.. Well, I had to go interstate for a bit for work, and when I got back I had University on the weekend, and then I've been in bed all week with my long suffering sciatica So I haven't been able to get to a computer to update for the last two weeks! Sorry!!

Today I went into hospital to have a steroid injection in my back to ease my pain so fingers are firmly crossed that I'll be back to normal soon.

Interestingly enough, because I was "sick" I didn't feel much like eating and my band felt extra tight. Which worked for me cos I couldn't exactly get up to go to the kitchen to fix myself something to eat!!!

I've lost 100g since last weigh in, after putting on 700g with the interstate trip, so I'm now at 101.5kg (on 30th May). I'll weigh in tomorrow for a more recent weight.

Anyhoo, hope you are all doing great... banded or soon-to-be banded!!!

Kylie - great news about your finding your sweet spot... you get it now eh? It makes it worth having the band.. and you get what the purpose of the band is, eh? Just remember, your brain isn't banded... and norti foods can still get through pretty easily!!! heheh

Take care all,

LBG xx