My second little boy turned 3 months old this week... where is the time going? He is absolutely gorgeous, such a smiley happy baby. I love him to absolute bits!
What I am becoming more acutely aware of is the fact that I am not losing weight anymore. I thought I'd just be able to breastfeed myself down to my goal weight. Ummm.. No. Breastfeeding hunger is serious... I MUST EAT ALL THE THINGS! Seriously, I am hungry ALL. THE. TIME. And thirsty.. so goddamn thirsty! Now that the breastfeeding is well established and I'm having absolutely NO problems at all (so freaking lucky!), it's time to address my weight loss.. it's time for a fill.
This morning I rang the clinic and booked in for a fill. 11:30am on October 18th 2012 is my appointment with my wonderful lapband surgeon and fill doctor. I'm a bit excited about getting a fill, part of me is dreading it too. I know I'm going to have to retrain myself to eat smaller portions again. But I need to do this. I'm not happy at this weight. I mean, I'm happy.. deleriously happy that I have such a beautiful family, my life is wonderful, but truthfully I'm not happy with how I feel with my body. Maybe its a post pregnancy thing (I did only give birth 3 months ago).. who knows, but either way, it's starting to get me down. None of my clothes fit me. I feel so unfit and tired. Exercise will play a big role in my weight loss as well, this I know. I'm looking forward to getting back to the gym, but this is something I can't do until I start working again. Because 1) we don't have the extra money for a gym membership and 2) I can exercise during my lunch break while the boys are in daycare.
So what will I do for the next month? I'm going to start reading up again on the lapband diet, prepare my pantry for my fill by getting rid of (aka.. eating) all the stuff I won't be able to eat when my lapband is filled. I am going to start making menu plans for dinners too.
I will also be "Starting Over" on the blog. I'm going to remove all my previous weight loss information and post my STARTING WEIGHT as of 18th October. I will become accountable again, and I will post my progress on my blog. I hope you'll follow my journey, this time with 2 kids in tow!!
Thanks for reading!!